a series of attempts

July 4, 2011 § 2 Comments

a series of attempts

at trying to grasp the fact
i am merely a glimpse

a glimpse in a mirror
a mirror held before something that i cannot fathom
twinkle in the eye of Atom

a series of attempts at coming to grips
with the fact i can’t tell
holy water from spit
dust from a gold bar
friend from a faux-pas
i am so far
from my north star
so off the mark so far in the dark
without You.

a series of attempts at honoring a covenant
made long before a single burst of oxygen
entered these lungs

a series of attempts at coming to terms with
this tempest as a temporary turn of events.

these are attempts at solving the ancient riddle of the sphinx-

coming to terms with the lengths
the lengths i must go to
in being a human
feeding on my own ruins

series of attempts
at accepting what is clearly not meant
to be,
at accepting what is sent
to me,

so be it.

a series of attempts at being entrenched
by the wayside everyday abides by
the same rules

these are attempts at coming to terms
with the fact i can’t often discern
between a hand of Mercy and a Fatal grip
between the guiding lantern and the flame that
burns the wings of this moth

these are attempts at coming to grips
with the fact this flesh is not nearly as dense as
these breaths that i’m holding in
till i’m suffocating on em
forcing me to let go of
only to try to grasp them with my hands
because of
what i want to become

these breaths that are crawling in and out of
as i’m bowing before Your Crown of
as i’m fallin in and out of
love with an Illusion that I don’t want to let go of

a series of attempts at coming to grips
with the fact I am not nearly as dense
as these mirrors suggest
I am going through the steps of holding this breath
only to let it it go only to try to catch it
in these fingers but i can’t grip it
it always slips through

a series of attempts
to sincerely repent
to be near You

to be in perfect Awe.

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